
Thursday, December 24, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #1 White Christmas (Bing Crosby)

Wednesday, December 23, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #2 The Christmas Song (Nat King Cole)

The list so far:
2. The Christmas Song (Nat King Cole)
3. The Little Drummer Boy/Peace on Earth (Bing Crosby, David Bowie)
4. Silent Night (Mannheim Steamroller)
5. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree (Brenda Lee)
6. Let It Snow (Dean Martin)
7. Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
8. Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Tuesday, December 22, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordiings #3 The Little Drummer Boy/Peace on Earth (Bing Crosby and David Bowie)

The list so far:
3. The Little Drummer Boy/Peace on Earth (Bing Crosby, David Bowie)
4. Silent Night (Mannheim Steamroller)
5. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree (Brenda Lee)
6. Let It Snow (Dean Martin)
7. Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
8. Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Monday, December 21, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #4 Silent Night (Mannheim Steamroller)

The list so far:
4. Silent Night (Mannheim Steamroller)
5. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree (Brenda Lee)
6. Let It Snow (Dean Martin)
7. Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
8. Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Saturday, December 19, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #6 Let It Snow (Dean Martin)

The list so far:
6. Let It Snow (Dean Martin)
7. Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
8. Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Friday, December 18, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #7 Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
The list so far:
7. Blue Christmas (Elvis Presley)
8.Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Thursday, December 17, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #8 Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)

The list so far:
8.Sleigh Ride (The Boston Pops)
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #9 Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)

The list so far:
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Gene Autry)
10. Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings 10 Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)

The list so far:
10: Here Comes Santa Claus (Elvis Presley)
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Monday, December 14, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #11 Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)

The list so far:
11. Have a Holly Jolly Christmas (Burl Ives)
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Sunday, December 13, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #12 Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)

The list so far:
12. Christmas Time Is Here (Vince Guaraldi Trio)
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Saturday, December 12, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #13 Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)

The list so far:
13. Christmas [Baby Please Come Home] (Darlene Love)
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Friday, December 11, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #14 God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)

The list so far:
14. God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Barenaked Ladies)
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Thursday, December 10, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #15 Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)

The list so far:
15. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland)
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Wednesday, December 9, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #16 Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)

The list so far:
16. Deck the Halls (Mannheim Steamroller)
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Tuesday, December 8, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #17 I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)

The list so far:
17. I'll Be Home for Christmas (Bing Crosby)
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Monday, December 7, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #18 We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)

The list so far:
18. We Need a Little Christmas (Johnny Mathis)
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Sunday, December 6, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #19 There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)

The list so far:
19. There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays (The Carpenters)
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
In Search Of Domestic Tranquility
Back in my pastoring days I learned that when it came to deciding things like what color we should paint the nursery or what we should serve at the Annual ( you fill in the blank) Banquet the fewer people involved the better. The reason is simple. If you paint the nursery green but Mrs. Jones prefers orange, if you did not ask her, she will simply think you picked an ugly color. But if you ask Mrs. Jones what color she thinks you should choose, and the walls still get painted green, well now it's personal. Her input has been rejected and you may very well have to deal with her hurt feelings.
This same principle applies to putting together a list of top Christmas recordings. While compiling my list I asked for my wife's input. I showed her what I had put together and asked her if she had any suggestions. She named several songs she thought deserved consideration and some of those made the list. Some did not. In particular her favorite did not. This di not make her happy.
There are several reasons for this. For one this recording is only a couple years old and so it has not stood the test of time. It hasn't been around long enough to be considered one of the "greatest". Also, it is a reworking of a song which in its original form has nothing to do with Christmas. It's a great song. It's a beautiful song. It's an iconic song. It's not a Christmas song. When most people hear it being played their thoughts will not turn to Christmas.
Nevertheless, it is very beautiful and moving and deserves to be heard. Maybe in 10 years if I revise the list this will have made the kind of impact that it will have to be included. For now just listen and enjoy Hallelujah by Cloverton.
This same principle applies to putting together a list of top Christmas recordings. While compiling my list I asked for my wife's input. I showed her what I had put together and asked her if she had any suggestions. She named several songs she thought deserved consideration and some of those made the list. Some did not. In particular her favorite did not. This di not make her happy.
There are several reasons for this. For one this recording is only a couple years old and so it has not stood the test of time. It hasn't been around long enough to be considered one of the "greatest". Also, it is a reworking of a song which in its original form has nothing to do with Christmas. It's a great song. It's a beautiful song. It's an iconic song. It's not a Christmas song. When most people hear it being played their thoughts will not turn to Christmas.
Nevertheless, it is very beautiful and moving and deserves to be heard. Maybe in 10 years if I revise the list this will have made the kind of impact that it will have to be included. For now just listen and enjoy Hallelujah by Cloverton.
Saturday, December 5, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #20 Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helm)

The list so far:
20. Jingle Bell Rock (Buddy Helms)
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Friday, December 4, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #21 I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)

The list so far:
21. I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus (The Jackson 5)
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano
Thursday, December 3, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #22 All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)

The list so far:
22. All I Want for Christmas (Mariah Carey)
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano)
Wednesday, December 2, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #23 O Holy Night (Josh Groban)

The list so far:
23. O Holy Night (Josh Groban)
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano)
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #24 Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)

One caveat though, this is the one and only version of this song that should ever be played, All the other attempts to replicate it are crass imposters. (I'm looking at you Madonna. Are you listening Britney Spears?) So here is the original. Take a fresh listen.
The list so far:
24. Santa Baby (Eartha Kitt)
25. Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano)
Monday, November 30, 2015
My Top 25 Christmas Recordings #25 Feliz Navidad (Jose Feliciano)
Sunday, November 29, 2015
My Holiday Writing Challenge: My Top 25 Christmas Recordings
The Christmas season is officially upon us. I happen to think that this is good thing. I look forward to watching all the sappy movies and seeing the decorations appear in yards and along the streets. I like Christmas trees, Christmas cookies, and Christmas commercials on TV. About the only thing associated with Christmas that I don't like is fruit cake.
One of my favorite things about Christmas is the music. Whether it's a traditional carol or a jazzy holiday tune you can count on me to pause my station surfing and sing along with Bing, Wham or whoever. So with this in mind, I am undertaking a self imposed blogging challenge. I have composed a list of what I believe to be the 25 greatest recordings of Christmas music. Starting tomorrow and running through Christmas Eve, each day I will post one song in descending order until I reach the number one song.
The criteria I am using is informal. First of all I have great taste, so if I like the song it qualifies. Secondly, the song and rendition chosen should carry some sort of cultural significance. Finally, I need to be able to find it on YouTube. Also, there will only be one version of each individual song included.
I realize these types of lists are subjective and opinions will vary (I have already heard from someone close to me about some of my potential choices). I would love to hear what you think but understand that if you disagree with me, you're wrong.

The criteria I am using is informal. First of all I have great taste, so if I like the song it qualifies. Secondly, the song and rendition chosen should carry some sort of cultural significance. Finally, I need to be able to find it on YouTube. Also, there will only be one version of each individual song included.
I realize these types of lists are subjective and opinions will vary (I have already heard from someone close to me about some of my potential choices). I would love to hear what you think but understand that if you disagree with me, you're wrong.
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
The Old Man

I don’t remember anything about that round, I wish I could because as it turned out that was the last time he and I would play golf together. That summer he started not feeling well. Nothing serious it seemed,. just a low grade fever he couldn’t seem to shake. In the Fall he had a bout with pneumonia that put him in the hospital for a while and even though he recovered from that he still couldn’t shake that fever.
As the weeks went on his fatigue grew worse and he began to suspect something was seriously wrong. The doctors agreed and started using scary words like lymphoma and Hodgkin's. On December 1st dad was diagnosed with an aggressive form of leukemia. He was told he probably had about 6 months to live.
My family and I flew out to spend Christmas with him. We flew home on New Year’s Eve. On January 4th my brother called to tell me dad was declining quickly. On January 6th I flew back to California. I arrived at 1:00 PM. Dad passed away a little after 9:00.
My dad lived a great life. He had a childhood filled with great memories and was raised by parents who loved him dearly. He married the girl of his dreams and had 54 years with her and they loved each other more everyday. He raised 4 children who loved and respected him. He had 11 grandchildren who adored him. He spent 50 years building successful career as a pastor doing what he loved and having an impact on literally thousands of lives. He traveled the world and to see and do things most people only dream about doing. He lived a full and rich life and when the end came he died peacefully surrounded by his family, Truth be told, it really doesn’t get much better than that. I should feel lucky.
I still feel cheated sometimes.Even though I got share so much with him, there are still a lot of things I feel I missed out on.
I wish he could have seen my kids graduate from high school. I wish I could have watched the Giants win the World Series with him or at least have been able to call him after they did. I wish he had been able to watch my daughter get married and to have met my son in law. I wish my grandchildren could have known him.
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Papa
I've played a number of roles in my life. I've been a son, a brother, a cousin and an uncle. I became husband and a dad. I've been a teacher, a pastor, a coach, and a salesman. I've been called friend, coworker, neighbor and some things I'd rather not mention. I'll admit there were times I felt overwhelmed by the expectations that came with all of these. The last thing I thought I wanted or needed was a new title.
Five years ago this morning I was given yet another role. On August 6th, 2010 I became Papa. Savannah Joyce Scherzer entered the world and changed my life. Within seconds of seeing her for the first time I couldn't imagine life without her. I didn't know what I'd been missing. This is why I love being Papa:
Hearing her giggle uncontrollably at something silly I've said
The sense of justice I feel when she gives her mother a difficult time
Watching how her mother deals with her and realizing I must have done something right.
Bedtime stories when we have sleepovers
Seeing how excited she gets when Jody and I walk through the door
Having little ones around at Christmas again
How she corrects me every time I say "Sophia the Worst" (some of you know what I'm talking about)
Giving sage advice to her parents
Goodnight hugs and kisses
Spoiling
Handing her back to her parents after said spoiling
Having coworkers think I'm older than I actually am (Okay, maybe I don't love that so much)
Watching her grow
Wishing she would stop growing
Hearing her say, "Can we watch the Giants?"
Pushing her on the swings
Seeing her play with her little sister
Being a hero for something as simple as going to the store to buy apple juice
Seeing how she melts Jody's heart
Having my heart melted everyday
Happy birthday Savannah. I know you're going to get a lot of presents but I hope you know that being your Papa is the best present of all.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Torture
I knew in advance what lay ahead for me. In the back of my mind I wanted to believe that I could find a way out. Right up to the last minute I tried to put it out of my mind and hoped maybe it would just go away. But that never works and this time proved to be no exception. So I steeled myself to face the inevitable. I wasn’t alone but my partner in this venture did not provide any solace. She was the reason I was here in the first place and even seemed to take a sick pleasure in what was going on. My only comfort lie in the fact that this was only temporary and would soon be over. Soon is subjective though.
Almost immediately I could feel sweat breaking out on my forehead and tension starting to churn in my stomach. “Steady now”, I told myself. “You can’t let it get to you this quickly or you’ll never make it”, and so I soldiered on. As I took in my environment I could see others who shared my struggle. Some like me were just beginning their sentence while others had the haggard look of veterans who had already seen and endured too much. I knew I would soon be joining their ranks.
The first thing I noticed was the pain in my feet, nothing much at first, just a dull ache. That was soon to be followed by cramping in my back and legs. Fatigue set in even more quickly than I had anticipated and for the first time fear crept in. “If it’s this bad now”, I thought, “what is it going to be like later?” That was a question I didn’t want answered. That's because I already knew the answer.

I looked at my phone to see how long this had been going on. I was shocked to see how little time had passed. What seemed like hours was mere minutes. It was like I was trapped in a Twilight Zone episode where time stops, where hours take days and nothing and nobody ever seems to age. My fear grew.
My companion however didn’t seem to be feeling any ill effects at all. She seemed oddly energized by this horrible place. What I found excruciating she found fascinating. What had me begging for mercy had her hungering for more. I have to admit that while I found this to be more than just a little disturbing I also admired whatever inner strength she possessed that enabled her to thrive. It was quite amazing.
I finally reached the limit to what I believed I could endure. The pain in my feet had grown to a full on throbbing burn. My legs ached and my back felt like it was going to completely lock up. My vision was blurred. Dizziness and nausea now enveloped me . My speech was nothing but incoherent mumbling. I was a shell of the man I had been when all this started. Just when I had reached and surpassed my limits a light finally appeared at the end of my seemingly endless tunnel. The portal from for my escape was in sight. The mere sight of it lessened my pain and strengthened my resolve. I spied the final guardian who stood at the gate. His eyes were cold and his mouth was frozen in a contemptuous smirk. I stared back at him defiantly as I limped passed and took my first steps towards freedom. Behind me heard him call out, “Thanks for shopping at Hobby Lobby and you folks have a great day!”
Monday, June 8, 2015
Confessions of a Fat Guy
I grew up skinny, I mean really skinny. Ribs were countable. Knees knobbed. My dad said that when I wore shorts I looked
like a pair of pliers. All through my high school and college years my
inseam possessed a larger number than my waist and through it all I ate
with abandon.
"Yes, I'll have the 20 piece chicken nuggets. Ten tacos? No Problem. You know what makes a Big Mac even better? Another Big Mac!" Ah, that was the life...unlimited food without consequences.
But eventually, seemingly overnight, it caught up with me. It really seemed like I went to sleep one night blissfully slim and woke up to find that my face had grown two new chins and bending down to tie my shoes was suddenly difficult. I was forced to face the ugly truth, I had turned into a fat guy.
This realization resulted in my experiencing 6 stages of fat guyness:
Truth be told I have lost weight several times. I have even kept if off for several years. But stuff happens and food's siren song always beckons. Eventually I wake up and once again see a fat guy staring back at me from the bathroom mirror. Over the last couple of years I have lost and found the same 25 pounds several times. I believe it is time for me to get off the weight-loss trampoline.
I recently opened a Facebook account. One reason for that is for accountability. I figure committing to make weekly weigh-in reports via social media will create incentive to stay the course. The possibility of public shame and scorn is powerful. In December I am going to California for a wedding and to spend Christmas with family . I want to weigh less than 200 pounds by then. In addition to my Facebook updates I will use this blog to occasionally provide more detail and observations about the process. Wish me luck.
"Yes, I'll have the 20 piece chicken nuggets. Ten tacos? No Problem. You know what makes a Big Mac even better? Another Big Mac!" Ah, that was the life...unlimited food without consequences.
But eventually, seemingly overnight, it caught up with me. It really seemed like I went to sleep one night blissfully slim and woke up to find that my face had grown two new chins and bending down to tie my shoes was suddenly difficult. I was forced to face the ugly truth, I had turned into a fat guy.
This realization resulted in my experiencing 6 stages of fat guyness:
- Denial (I'm not fat, I've just finally filled out)
- Bargaining (OK, I'll eat the Ultimate Cheeseburger today and I won't eat the rest of the week)
- Anger (Which one of you jerks stole my metabolism?)
- Depression (I feel sad, maybe a pizza will make me happy)
- Indifference (I could lose it anytime I want, I'm just not sure I want to) and finally
- Acceptance (I like being fat. I refuse to conform to society's superficial standards).

Truth be told I have lost weight several times. I have even kept if off for several years. But stuff happens and food's siren song always beckons. Eventually I wake up and once again see a fat guy staring back at me from the bathroom mirror. Over the last couple of years I have lost and found the same 25 pounds several times. I believe it is time for me to get off the weight-loss trampoline.
I recently opened a Facebook account. One reason for that is for accountability. I figure committing to make weekly weigh-in reports via social media will create incentive to stay the course. The possibility of public shame and scorn is powerful. In December I am going to California for a wedding and to spend Christmas with family . I want to weigh less than 200 pounds by then. In addition to my Facebook updates I will use this blog to occasionally provide more detail and observations about the process. Wish me luck.
Saturday, June 6, 2015
That's What I Think
Do you know what I think? I think people should know what I think. I think people want to know what I think. I have many thoughts and I think the world deserves the opportunity to see those thoughts. I think the world needs that opportunity, that it craves my insight. I think the lack of that opportunity is why we have so much angst and unhappiness.
OK, maybe not, OK, probably not. OK, definitely not. So why start a blog? As I stated above, I have a lot of thoughts. I'd like to think that some of these thoughts are interesting or amusing and that others might think so as well. So even though the world has neither demanded nor even requested a medium for seeing what passes through my brain, I am going to provide one anyways. I don't know exactly what direction this will take but if you happen to stop by let me know what you think.
OK, maybe not, OK, probably not. OK, definitely not. So why start a blog? As I stated above, I have a lot of thoughts. I'd like to think that some of these thoughts are interesting or amusing and that others might think so as well. So even though the world has neither demanded nor even requested a medium for seeing what passes through my brain, I am going to provide one anyways. I don't know exactly what direction this will take but if you happen to stop by let me know what you think.
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